We aspire to responsibility. Why?
Yes, being responsible is a very good thing. It makes you a good person, when you stick to it. It makes you a hero in times of war. Unless of course everyone does it. Suddenly it's just expected of you. It's a shame how something even as important as that loses its value as supplies increase.
(guess who's taking an economy course?)
But there are greater things to be responsible to, greater than just living day to day, making money, getting food on the table. These are the necessities. We all adhere to them as best we can because we have to. It's made it easy for us to deny our responsibilities to being true to ourselves, and encouraging that of others.
And so we have abandoned that which should matter to us, that which was part of being true to ourselves. And I miss it.
I miss painting.
I miss playing my guitar.
I miss writing.
I miss putting my songs together.
I miss learning for the fun of it and reading until the sun rises.
I miss four hour wikipedia bunny trails.
I miss scraping up weird, independent films and becoming a devoted fan.
I miss holding my nephew every day.
I miss that feeling when I first fell for the boy.
I miss having friends in town to go out with.
I miss Stephen and Jesse's stupid antics.
I miss spontaneous trips up the mountain and doing donuts in the taco bell parking lot.
I miss quietly drawing in a corner until I have it exactly the way I imagined it in my head.
How much have I abandoned that we should be free at any time to explore? We are free but fruitless. I challenge you to rise up to the potential beyond the requisites. Do something more than what's needed to get by. Look outside of your needs, and show yourself what you want to do.
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